I'm Not WorThy

i am proud to say that i was once an active member of the best organisation in Univeristi Kebangsaan Malaysia..Urusetia Pembangunan Sumber Manusia(UPSM) but due to certain restraints..i had to pull myself out..i planned bout it for some while though..

UPSM has given me things that i couldn't imagine i could get anywhere else..love..compassion..understanding..and friendship..UPSM trained me to become a trainer and eventhough i 'm not qualified to train anyone..i do have the basic knowledge of the field..

UPSM has shaped me to who i am now..but even with all the knowledge i curently have..i'm not sure how i'm going to hold the burden of becoming the president of Micribiology Cub..this is by far the most straight forward post from me..no witty phrases..no crafty insults..just me speaking my mind bout this current issue..and i just want support from every member of the club..to right the wrongs of our seniors..to shed some light on the narrow mind set of our beloved microbiologists to be...

SiLveR LinIngs ArE eVerywHere..

yesterday wasn't da best day of my life..it was hectic..exhausting..and at times painful..da whole nite was a stress for me..pressure was squashing me like a giant hammer smashing a lemon...

but ALHADULILLAH..all praise be to Him...i endured it with frens..and my committee..id first like to thank my deputy...Khairul for always being there whenever i needed him..Que for the advice and smacks in the face i needed...Faiq for accepting to help at such notice..adib for helping out khairul with the bus arrangements...i would also like to thank all who have helped in making last night's dinner a success...i guess u could call it that...

you might think that i'm a wuss complaining bout this..and i am...technically..but not at heart...huuuuuuuuuu..

after taking care of my duties of the night..i was blessed with the opportunity to have a chat over a cup of coffee with Al-Akh Kadir(the lorry driver)..he's what we call a karkun (or tabligh for those of u aren't familiar with the word)..and goes out in the road of ALLAH azzawajal...he so kindly shared some stories..bout how he heard some speeches on his journeys..

and i shared my feelings for the

 night...and asked for advise..all he said bout it was..to have a calm heart..just positively(husnuzzhan) or give the benefit of the doubt while asking for forgiveness (istghfar)..

reminding ourselves that we are not perfect and look to improve ourselves than others..now i;m sharing it with anyone who has eyes and can read..

after the chat..we went our separate ways..where wished each other peace and blessings with giving each other a big hug..

i went back to room with a calm heart..felt like crying thinking bout how foolish i was.thinking so badly of others..i hope to become stronger from this..and become a better muslim..