nEW sEm??neW ME??

a new sem has arrived..it's already been bout 3weeks since i left my comfy bed in penang...3 whole weeks without the hustle and bustle n sounds of angry drivers honking their horns like there's no tomorrow..3 weeks of registering...buying new books..looking for classes..taking down lecture notes that only give us 2.3seconds to jot down while the lecturers blabber on about how fascinating a cell is..or how extremely complex a chromosome is regardless of its origin..excepting my less than acceptably GPA..nothing new..been there..done that..but still..after living for so long..soo flipping long..i still can't open my own eyes..i still can't face the fact that i HAVE to change..i HAVE to be a better me..not for myself...not for my family..but for the DEEN i believe in..U don't have to be perfect to make urself a muslim..u don't have to have 15diplomas  from 4different universities to be able imbrace islam..HECK..Bilal  was a slave when he believed in the one and true creator..ehem2..sorry melalut jap..emm..i just excluded mself from being an exCo from my facultie's student body..on my way of letting go of another position in my theater club..i know that being in a club or society doesn't effect our or more importantly...MY grades..it's after when we don't commit...that's when the problems kick in..

after thinking it over rationally..i drew out a theory bout being active in clubs or societies or student bodies or even in your college's annual dinner prep..usually the normal everyday person would say this.."yo Joe, i don't think i'm going to da meeting tonite..i'd be better off studying or finishing of that overdue paper prof mu'adz asked for last week"

from here..we can see two things already(well three, ignoring the part about me suddenly being a professor and giving student's homework )..the first thing is his attitude..he doesn't care bout his duty to go to the meeting..he disregards the face that he has been given the faith to hold a position..yet he coolly studies n 'spends his time well' 'while letting the others go for the meeting..he doesn't know that his time studying isn't blessed because he's very being irresponsible..and when he tries to answer the final paper..he suddenly turn blank as he cannot remember wat he learnt during the time he was SUPPOSED to be in a meeting..and the second thing is that he has an overdue paper..this is due to the fact that he has not commited himself into wat he had promised to commit..so God Al-Mighty doesn't give him time to finish his assignment as his duty to go to the meeting wasn't fullfiled...So i Can'T n NevEr will put da blame on anything but myself..n i hope that i will change for the better...(^_^')